Kādreiz šis būs mans.. (love)

 

 

Movies?!?!

 

I want everything to be just like in the movies with happy ending or even with any ending at all. I mean in almost every movie you see that everyone finds love or  always make peace with friends. I am tired of me, I am tired of this world. Why can’t I found love our stay friends with…..? I miss my teddy bear. Yesterday I remembered our happy times together, I want it back. It was the best moments of my life – when we were together. I will never found better friend like my teddy bear. (cry)

See no meter how many times Serena and Blair argue they always find a way to be best friends.

(cry)

 

It's only 21 days left till my birthday. And I am starting to make a gest list and as I'm making it I realize that I have very few close friends (3) and only one thinks that I'm his closest friend too. I lose all my best friends because they are tired of me. And I can’t change anything because I don’t know what I need to change. Or I just don’t want to see that something is wrong with me.

OK I know one thing about me that is exhausting – I am naïve and I always hope that in the future all will be better even if I don’t do anything to change things. For example I thought that me and my teddy bear are friends again but I was seriously wrong. How can we be friends again if our past isn’t cleared up? I think that I will always feel empty and lonely inside for rest of my life.

One time I read that people who are internally broken are the brightest and funniest outwardly. Is this statement about me?!?

Need to dream big. :D

 

When I grow old (like 30) these cars will be mine.2008  DODGE CHALLENGER  or 1968 DODGE CHARGER R/T and MUSTANG GT

TRUTH. (one tear on my face)

 

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It is my birthday’s month. :)

LOVE

“Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, nor is it resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others’ sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.”

Corinthians 13: 4-8

 

Love is like a wind  - you can’t see it but you can feel it.